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Same old Same old

Wed, 1 Oct 2008 13:47:04 -0400

2 issues at a time. After that I get both bored and tired. I put so much into a project @ the beginning that I’ve got nothing left for the long haul (my own project not withstanding). Couple that with the negative commentary and ka-boom! I could care less. I compromise both my principles and my ego just to keep food on the table it’s UNREALISTIC that I would care. If everything you did was scrutinized and commented on right down to the most minute detail every day of your life how would you feel? What’s not understood is that I have very little to do with the final product when it’s not my own and I right now I have NO SAY over anything that’s on the page. I’m made to do things that I know are wrong and then I’m blamed for it by an over critical public. The bastards who insisted upon it just stand back and throw me to the wolves. SO how would you feel under those circumstances? It makes every bad thing you hear the gospel truth and every good thing seem like sarcasm. Oh you actually like it or are you about to kick my teeth in? It’s all made me hate... absolutely hate, both my job and everything associated with it. I hate art in general. I do it because it’s all I can do. I’m too old for a career change. I’ve worked to long, I’m a good industry whore. I don’t cause trouble but I’m bleeding to death with a smile on my face.

In final. just because you like a thing don’t assume it’s all roses and everyone likes it or knows it as intimately as you do.

Slow as the Dickens!

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 11:21:14 -0400

I’m finding that I’m verrrryyyyy slow these days. A lot of neglected errands have caught up with me, but even so I am a mess! I take unnecessary, time consuming breaks; and I’m easily distracted. It’s the three issue curse! Every third issue I get lethargic and that’s NEVER GOOD! I have to break the cycle most especially now that I recognize it.

A stranger in paradise

Wed, 4 Jun 2008 13:39:05 -0400

I really shouldn’t be complaining about this, but I feel so oddly taken advantage of that I must make mention in some form. I doing something that I really don’t want to do in a setting that’s going to make me very uncomfortable, but it’s for a good cause so I should be cool about it... but I’m not. I feel a lack of value as a Artist already I don’t need the vultures picking my bones clean before I’m even dead.

I couldn’t feel worse... (but the cute pics help)

Wed, 21 May 2008 10:56:02 -0400

For the last 12 hours or so I’ve been dragging myself through the mud for making a unfixable mistake on an assignment. It’s my first of it’s kind and I hate myself for it. What was so wrong in my head that I couldn’t catch it? Looking back I so wanted to do a good job, and that particular panel was of great concern. I got caught up in trying to figure out the hands not realizing that it was the wrong mountain I was trying to climb. I didn’t catch it, and no one else did either until it was published. Now some very clever know-it-alls get to throw stones. I feel so bad I could cry.

As Pretty as a Girl

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 08:08:12 -0400

I’m finding that as my company grows the demands are becoming greater and it’s a whole lot less fun. I have no time to read or just go out impromptu. or even really watch the stuff I’m DVRing. It’s all par for the course and I am happy, but it’s a very scary thing to live on hopes and dreams.
I’m in the middle of prepping the second issue for print. The pre-press work is even harder than drawing the damn thing! There aren’t enough hours in the day for the amount of work and I keep forgetting to update my sites! ***SIGGHHH***